Tuesday, January 3, 2012

so this is christmas...

its been amazing in florida! i can't even begin to describe all the great times i had with my family, and i really got some exercise. I'm even a little less pale now, haha. i met my aunt's dog Tater for the first time this vacation, they drove down all the way from Alabama (where they live) to spend their christmas with us. She calls him the most creative names! Like: "Hatapoo" and "Hutapa" and "Terminator"<3

Christmas Eve was nothing special, but it was cozy. I got a bag and hoodie from my aunt and uncle, and i got this computer that I'm typing on now. It was a pretty big gift, from my grandpa and my parents, and partly my own money... -.- ... and the rest of my gifts were clothes and things that i bought in america :)

I got home two days before New Year, and the days since then, up until now, have been kind of tough. Mostly realizing, that i can't live in a place like that, that i used to live in a place like that, where i felt so at home. And they speak ENGLISH. WHY ME?? why do i have to live here?! .... but anyways, I'm reading through my two popstar or m magazines, or whatever they are called, as if the memories will stay alive inside my head.
I haven't written poems since i read the Twilight Saga, because the books made me so depressed, and i was SO obsessed! until last night at 3 am, so i knew this was totally, totally not good.
I want to get out of here as soon as possible, for my own sake. Its not good for me to live here, i feel so small and too big at the same time.

It's good if you've stopped reading by now, because I really don't know what I'm writing at this point...

I'm going to fight and work my butt off and my brains out in high school, and its going to be one where they teach and speak ENGLISH, because i speak ENGLISH, and i know everything, in ENGLISH. no offense denmark, but i don't belong here! and i don't think you want me here either, no offense taken...

I'm hoping SO badly, that i do well enough to get out of here, and that my life will get MUCH easier. I don't know how it would help by writing all this shit here, but maybe someone out there could make it happen. Not that God is reading my BLOG or anything, haha...


:I

Saturday, December 10, 2011

random*

Random and a little awkward when i see a profile pic of my old classmate, whos so hot now, and ofc. hes french, and i dont know whether i should like it or not. cause i really Really do like it. :O

gah what to do, what to do?! ... :/

btw.
for those of you who live under a rock, this is Harry Styles . ;)